Fall is here

Wow...the weather is getting colder and the food it getting more plentiful. It seems like I cook so much more when it starts to get cold. Do I think I need a layer of fat for the winter? I dont.
It seems that since the arrival of Katie who is now 16 months old, that time has gone by so fast. Even the days that I thought would never end with no sleep and crying and all that stuff that new babies do. I cant believe all of that is over. Now she walks and is always on the verge of talking. She says certain things, strange things but they are cute none the less.
Today she walked around for a long time with mittens on. She has never had mittens on before so I am only assume it was entertaining. She finds something new every day to experience. Things that are so simple to me are fascinating to her. Qtips...she loves qtips. I dont know why. She finds them very amusing.
It is all so happy and so sad at the same time. I know that someday I will forget so many of these little things. I know that someday I will say she is 16, not 16mt and she will want nothing to do with me. But right now, while she will let me, I will hold her and snuggle her and play with her and kiss her all I can.
I want to remember all the little things she does. I try to video tape as much as I can. We bought her a toddler recliner for the living room and she thinks it is so much fun. She laughs at it, she plays in it, she lines up toys along the arms, she stores fish in the cup holder and she bounces on the seat. She sit in there like an adult with a book. She looks so big to me. Her outlook on life is admirable.

Katie is walking

Katie is so independant that she wants to walk all over and she wants to be alone. None of that 'holding mommies hand' stuff...that is for wimps! Today we went to the part and she explored everything. She has such an inquisitive spirit. I wish that we could all keep that forever. It is too bad that life squashes that eventually. To her right now, everything is new and exciting and the possibilities are endless. Watching her brings a whole new perspective to light for me.
We are going away this weekend. I have never left her before. My parents and mother in law are keeping her and I trust them, that isnt the problem. I am just stressing out about leaving her. I feel like I am going to be too far away to come home if she needs me. It is hard to explain how much different/better life is since she got here. It seemed perfect. Sometimes I am afraid that things are so perfect that it cant last.

Love Pink!

I love love love pink. Yesterday we bought a new computer for me. I am using my computer for work and it keeps crashing etc so we decided to buy a new computer and it is PINK. LOVE IT. It will to be here for a couple weeks but I am too excited. I am just like a kid, I get so excited about new toys!!
I will report and post a picture when it gets here. It is going to be adorable :-)
It has just been a good week. I hope it continues.

Stuggle to concentrate

I am struggling to concentrate today. I have work to do, I know I need to be motivated. We have a lot going on in the next couple weeks and I have a project due next Friday and I cant get going. I am very lucky to have the job, I know that, I just need to get going. For some reason I just want to clean the house...NOW, that would never happen if I didnt have something to do. IF I had the time to clean, I would want to read. I guess it is all relative.
I feel so lucky today. I feel blessed that my husband has provided all of this for us. Katie is so happy, she is walking around all the time now and she seems so happy. All I want is for her to be happy. I love being here with her and seeing her happy.
Today I need to go to the store and get a couple things for our trip and then work on the freelance project. That is the agenda. It is so much different than my life used to be with work and deadlines and stress and meetings. There is a new kind of stress but it is managable.
I just feel lucky today. I hope Katie is in a good mood when she wakes up and we will go shopping.

to blog or not to blog...

That is the question!
This is a place to find people that have similar feelings about life and motherhood.
I love being a mom, I love staying home with our daughter...she is 14 months old now. Staying home and just being a mom brings new challenges. There is the lack of adult conversation and the lack of that feeling of accomplishment from bringing in an income. But there is the satisfaction of knowing that the Katie is safe and in good hands all day. That she is loved and well taken care of. There is also the feeling that sometimes there is never a break. I have a great husband that acts as a sounding board for me. I also freelance on line as often as I can.
I am so lucky to have the ability to stay home. This life has been a great journey but I believe that now that I have had a baby, the real fun is about to begin and I would like to document it all!